Hi I’m Henna and I have OCD. I didn’t want to make a big song and dance about it but despite having an extremely strong support system, I still remember feeling rather isolated when I was at my worst.
As a result, I thought that if one person reads this and it makes them feel a bit better, then it’s worth it.
I feel like I have come on leaps and bounds when I think back on how I was in the first half of this year and as anyone with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder knows, even when you feel as though you are no longer at war with yourself as much as you were before, you still often have bad days.
I have struggled with OCD since my early teens but always felt that I was “managing it”. Truth is, I wasn’t. My intrusive thoughts, worries about upsetting someone hugely and strong need for a sense of order in my life had been snowballing right up until the age I am now, 24.
I realised at the end of last year that I needed to accept/receive help. I was officially diagnosed at the beginning of this year and it has been a bit of an uphill struggle since then really.
During the time surrounding my birthday, I was at a stage where I didn’t even know how to get through the day and one of the only things that used to pull me through was Harry Potter.
I suppose the reason for writing this article is to share with you something that my sister wrote in my birthday card this year which never fails to help me get through a tough day. I hope that is does the same for anyone who is going through a bit of a crappy time with OCD. Hang in there. I know it doesn’t feel like things are going to get better but they will, I promise.
“To Our Kid,
Always remember “We’ve all got both light and darkness inside us. What matters most is the part we choose to act on. That’s who we really are.” – Sirius Black