14th October 2017
Excuse my 4414 emails yea?
I’ve decided that I’ve had enough of social media for now. The aim is to go a week without it. That means no Tumblr, no Facebook, no Pinterest, no Snapchat and most certainly no Instagram.
To be fair, there’s a handful of those apps that I rarely use anyway because I seem to mostly be drawn to the photography based platforms.
Tonight I deleted all of the apps off my phone and if I’m being honest, It feels like a relief. I’m in one of those moods where everything is pissing me off and it’s turning me into an arse hole.
I know for some people it might not sound like a hard thing to do but although I have previously had chunks of time away from social media, I have never consciously made an effort to do so. This time is going to be different. I want to be aware of the pros and cons of these sites.
I’ve been feeling anxious for a few days now I just want a clear head without anyone else’s life having an influence on mine. At the stage I am now, It’s all feeling a bit too much and there’s nothing wrong with taking a break from something every once in a while. Even if it happens to be a platform that you usually enjoy contributing towards.
I’m feeling as though the outcome will be really positive but there is a part of me worrying that I might not be able to do it and that I’ll end up looking like a poooouuuusaaaaayyy.
I’m not expecting a Pride of Britain award for doing this but I’m just intrigued by the outcome. Without meaning to turn into one of those “when I was young” people, when I was young, I didn’t need any of this shit and deep down I’m hoping that I still don’t.
I’ve got comfy clothes on, mood lighting that Barry White would be envious of and a mind that is thirsty for that little bit of chill. Let’s see how long I can sustain if for.
We’re taking it old school folks.
15th October 2017
I went to a car boot sale this morning to get my thrift on. I saw so many people selling Boggle that I ended up feeling really sorry for Boggle #PrayForBoggle
Someone was also selling a baking book entitled “Scrummy Treats” which I misread as “Scummy Treats”. It made me feel a bit sick.
Car boot sales are funny man. It’s the only place I have ever been where someone has described a shitty kids toy as “a beautiful piece”. Welcome to Oxfordshire.
When I told my sister she goes “They’re at a car boot not a fucking auction.” LOL. I ended up just getting some page numbered notebooks for the book that I’m probably never going to write.
There isn’t really much to report on the ol’ social media front. I have to say, It does feel strange not having it there to hand. A nice kind of strange though. I’m finding that I don’t really need my phone as much.
16th October 2017
Age UK is a charity that feels pretty special to me after hearing stories from when my mum worked for them.
Today whilst shopping I picked up an Innocent Smoothie and realised that Age Uk’s “Big Knit” campaign had begun. My initial thought was that I wanted to remind people to pick up a bottle with a little knitted hat on to do their bit for a charity that really is awesome.
Not having access to social media made me realise how grateful I am to have a platform where I can encourage people to do a bit of good. Even if it’s something little. It all adds up doesn’t it? That’s what I love social media for.
17th October 2017
It’s my third proper day without social media and I’m beginning to realise how much I rely upon it when I’m struggling with my OCD and anxiety.
Whether it is hopping on Twitter to read peoples thoughts on a particular subject or clicking on Pinterest for a dose of inspiration.
At times, I use social media as a way to take my mind off of things and for that purpose alone, I’m finding it rather strange.
Saying that, it is putting me in a position where I have to find other outlets to help me get through tricky moments and I’m looking forward to exploring more ways that I can do that.
Let’s be honest, it’s not always a good idea to scroll through images of “perfection” when you’re feeling vulnerable.
18th October 2017
Since coming off of social media, time has passed a lot slower and I mean that in the best possible way. I have loved it.
I’m not feeling as though time is slipping through my fingers without me realising and wondering where it even went. When you’re absorbed in the nature of social media, It can be quite difficult to live mindfully but since deleting all of my apps, I feel as though I am doing that a bit more now.
I’m tasting my food instead of eating it without even realising that I’ve finished it all. I’m engaging more in conversations and even managed to read half a book. I know that sounds silly but for me, that’s awesome.
19th October 2017
Guess what the first thing I did when I woke up this morning was? I made a cup of tea. A CUP OF TEA PEOPLE. BEFORE CHECKING MY PHONE! what kind of sorcery is this?
I’ve come to realise that there are three types of people, right?
- The person who couldn’t give a rats arse about social media
- The person who loves it to death and what?
- The person that hates the fact that they use it but often feels as though they can’t stop. It makes them feel awful even though a part of them quite likes it? I think? A bit like that feeling you get after eating a Pot Noodle.
I fall into category number three my friends. Yes it’s great and all of that yadda yadda, but I don’t want to be reaching for my phone every time I’m feeling “a bit bored” and there is a part of me that would like to be someone who practices yoga and assumes that Instagram is an app that helps you “insta”ntly work out how many “gram”s of flour you need when making a roulade.
See? I’ve never even made a roulade. And that makes me sad.
20th October 2017
The little things. That’s what I’m really enjoying. Those tasks in the day that I would usually do on auto pilot or whilst checking my phone. Things like:
- enjoying my cup of tea whilst I’m waiting for my breakfast to cook
- cat cuddles
- fully immersing myself in a good TV series
- going for walks
It seems a bit of a shame that I’d previously lost sight of the importance of these simple little tasks. They’re so important.
21st October 2017
I speak to my dad on the phone almost everyday and try to visit as often as I can. Having said that, It’s nice for my family to see instant images and little updates of the exciting things that I have been up to.
I feel as though since not having social media, me and dad have a little bit more to catch up on. Or if I talk to him about my day, it’s harder for him to envisage because he can’t say “oh yes I saw that photo you posted. It looked great”.
I’m still not sure if I see this as a little positive or a massive negative though. I think I’m just going to let things be as they are.
22nd October 2017
I remember writing in this diary a few days ago that I wanted to find other ways to cope with my anxiety and OCD instead of scrolling through social media to distract myself.
This week, I wanted to find a distraction that would encourage to be a bit more creative and I ended up making a pom pom wreath from scratch. It sounds a bit random I know, but I found that it really helped my anxiety and OCD when I had something positive to show for it at the end. Something that I had created with my own two hands. It was quite soothing for me to know that I could create something positive out of such a negative.
This week really has been worth it.
23rd October 2017
So. This week has bloomin’ flown by! Although I have completed this little challenge that I had set myself, I wanted to journal for one extra day to talk about how my outlook has changed.
Today I had the option to re-download my apps but I have to say, I just don’t want to.
Although there are positives to using social media, I think that for the time being I want to take more of a step back from it so that I’m not letting the negative aspects have such an affect on me. I will probably reinstall the apps at some point but for now, this feels right.
After this week I noticed that I am beginning to give more of myself to my family, friends and even my pets (who I bloomin’ well love)
I’d definitely recommend giving it a go. It wasn’t half as difficult as I thought it would be. Even the thought of removing yourself from it can feel quite challenging, there’s nothing to loose but an awful lot to gain.