“I’m an individual, and I feel how I feel when I feel it.” – Hannah Horvath, Girls
Although it has taken me a while to finally get round to penning this post (procrastinate? me? how dare you), the topic has been playing on my mind continuously. To me, that means it is probably a subject worth dedicating some of my time to.
During my time as a student, one particular module required us to work on becoming more observant. If anything, when I was younger I was probably overly aware but you know, education and all that.
At the beginning of the lesson we would each have to stand up in front of the rest of the class and tell them one thing that we had observed that day.
On one particular morning whilst on my way to university, I had seen some street art using a quote by Harun Yahya. It read:
“I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth. Then I ask myself the same question.”
Once I had read it I couldn’t get it out of my mind.
Although I was someone who always dreaded speaking in in front of groups of people (my confidence at the time was pretty diabolical) I told everyone about the quote I had seen. On my way so sit my nervous arse back down, someone said the word “deep” in a tone of voice designed to mock me.
What was so silly was hearing someone say that made me feel stupid. Luckily, I’m at an age now where I’d either find it funny or I just genuinely wouldn’t give two shits. When you’re younger and majorly lacking in confidence however, it’s a completely different ball game isn’t it?
I’m 26 now and the people that I have met through life so far have made me realise regardless of whether it was said in jest, being teased for thinking deeply has been experienced by more people than I first thought.
Dwelling on life’s mysteries has always been a trait of mine but not one that I was always necessarily proud of.
I now believe that deep thinkers are often misunderstood as being “too serious” or “unable to have a laugh”. If you know anyone who might feel that way just know that it is complete laziness on their part.
When I think now about all of the work that I admire, poems, songs, art, books, They have all required a level of curiosity that some may find difficult to understand.
Knowing this makes me realise that it’s ok if life’s questions leave you reeling a little bit longer than others, because it can lead to amazing things.
Deep thinking if anything, should be encouraged and no-one should feel as though they have to dumb themselves down for anything or anyone.
Stay true to yourself and you’ll be just fine.